Something broke at the core of my heart
Into millions of pieces…
A vague, uncertain feeling whispered:
‘Look through a magnifying glass,’
All the way down, at the very bottom
I saw a shape darker than the dark,
“It must have been my hope,”
I concluded, but was not certain.
Did it matter anyway?
What it used to be, was now at the bottom.
It could not be saved!
It could have been love, or trust too,
All the noble ideals we invent
My mind knew all it mattered
Was the NOW, but the irrational Soul
Hung onto the past…
Millions of pieces crushed
Under the burden of lies, pretense,
The illusion of forever, the fear of death.
God answered me at last:
There is NO forever,
Only the dust which suffocated me,
The millions of crushed dreams,
Which sparkled in the darkness of life,
Giving me the illusion of hope!
I refused to believe,
I looked again, closer,
Through the distorted, magnifying glass
Of human emotions.
The hole deepened,
More and more…
A bottomless hole!
Somewhere, deeper than the hope,
I sensed another shadow,
Darker than the dark,
I was not certain what it was…
I needed the artificial light of
Human pretense and vanity
To dictate the rules
Of what it was that,
Which I saw!!!
Perhaps it was FAITH!
I turned around, and around,
Faster and faster,
No matter where I turned,
I was blinded by random pieces
They were senseless and hurtful…
The wider I opened my eyes,
The greater the hurt…
I closed them quickly,
Tight and forever…
Peace settled at last!