My soul was…
broken, smashed, crushed…
None and all could apply to all souls.
At times it feels like a heavy rock, pulling me to the bottom of the ocean, but the ocean seems bottomless and the destination never reached. An endless fall.
Other times, the place where we, humans, decided long ago, our souls reside, and so do our hearts, is in the center of our chest, slightly to the left.
Breathe in, slowly breathe out, and focus… there must be a sensation of soul, but how could one recognize that which she doesn’t know? And yet, it “feels” like a hole. Perhaps, this is how a blind person knows when to stop at the edge of a hole, but in my case, the hole was my soul. I was standing at its edge, undecided and stared down in its depth, where my soul was suppose to have resided. Perhaps it was still there, too deep to perceive.
Was I going to loose my emotional balance and step forward in search of IT, or instead, take two steps back in the safety of Mother Earth?
I am peaceful, I am safe, I made the right choice and stepped back!
I write about the many possibilities, the options of where my soul might reside and how it might “look.”
For now, I conclude, it resides everywhere, rather than nowhere and “its shape,” is no shape. My soul is pulverized in minuscule particles, able to be anywhere and nowhere at all times or no times…
It could be next to you, my children. You will not see it, but feel its presence and its love for you. When you do, please allow it to rest and breathe in your presence before it’s blown away, pulverized into eternity.