My desire to date comes and goes like episodes of bipolar, the type easy to diagnose because the symptoms are so clear opposite of one another. At times I felt on top of the world, happy, ready to spend money I didn’t have but I was sure God will take care of all my needs. Other times, my sole desire was to have enough strength to dive in a hole deep and dark where I didn’t recall what I did… sleep, cry, shout to be left alone or to be helped? All of the above? No one cared, anyway, and that was the overwhelming feeling: No one cared! I didn’t exist, not even for myself! I DID NOT EXIST FOR MYSELF, I WAS THE SHADOW OF NOTHINGNEESS!!! The bottom of that dark endless hole is hard to reach and crawling out of it even more difficult. For a change to occur, it does a miracle of God. So, I am here, writing, a miracle did pull me by the hear and threw me out from the dark hopeless. What I do once in the light, it will be MY CHOICE! and it will take perhaps many, not ONE miracle!
The story I am about to share has as a foundation that laughter is the BEST MEDICINE! Most of the story is true but parts are slightly exaggerated to achieve my purpose and make us smile while learning.
This is a self diagnosis, or misdiagnosis, but this is a TRUE story and because it happened to me, I will NOT sue myself fro disobeying the privacy law.
In this story I was in the “high” part’ of the illness where my qualities burst out of control: stunning, smart, l I was strong, I had superpowers, and don’t you tell me that all those men weren’t lining up to offer me luxury trip on Carnival lines! I
know your game, YOU are JEALOUS!!! and have plenty of reasons! At least be nice on the inside!
In one of this super-woman states, when flying was just the normal way I went from point A to point B, I decided to spread the good news of my supernatural powers and signed up on an internet dating service. Why keep the good news to myself, wouldn’t that be selfish, a trait a despise with all my heart???!!!
Generosity, a feature I admire and hope to achieve To offer and give someone I don’t know and perhaps, I’d still like that mother taught me to say, “thank you.!” If the world would me my personal estate, I will share it with the needy. And this is NOT a joke or illusion! It is the truth and I think of it daily!.
Oh, but let’s go back to a more realistic situation for $19.95 a month. Internet dating! Finding my soul mate Make the worlk a better place together! Why not? I filled in the application to the internet site, I thought that perhaps, in the process I might find an equally super-man, and together we will change the world to be a better place.
With all these philanthropic thoughts on my agenda, I met the possible man of my dreams for a first date.
Now, I must confess that everything had a limit, even miracles! As our wise Romanian saying goes “God helps those that help themselves.” Yes, I was trusting, but I still met my “prospect” at 2 PM in a café or a public place. Yes I knew he couldn’t have been a criminal because why would God send a criminal my way? However, who knew, in today’s world I felt hackers could hack everyone’ s laptop. Why not be careful? So with this in mind, before my date, I still asked a girlfriend to call me 15 minutes into the date and if there was no answer, chances were I was DEAD. No way I’d kiss passionately a stranger I knew after 15 minutes. Everyone knew the ethics I follow, and that I was not that desperate, Never lost my head to THAT extend…. hmm it would be nice!
In this specific case, all went according to plan (the boring, safe one). He was tall, a little unshaven, but acceptable for 2 PM in a Pizza Place. Most importantly, he didn’t smell!
We went into a Pizza Place and sat down.We ordered. He spoke first. Three slices with everything on them. You name: onions, olives, mushrooms, sausage,,, you name it, it on his pizza! I appreciated a man who knew his mind. He knew what he wanted. A rare quality! he was a man with an appetite and wasn’t hiding it! It showed self confidence! No lies! That and good sex are dreams of my life and he had both (I assumed the second) Internet dating at work! But oh, well, some of us, learn slowly. Some very slowly or ever… you guess, that’s me.
I ordered one slice and a glass of water. I didn’t want to make a bad impression, to order to much on a first date and assuming he would pay, I wanted to avoid any embarrassment. Oh! And I ate slowly with my mouth closed.
The appetizing slices arrived and he bit into his with a hard to believe hunger of… life, of pizza, of everything! God how I loved a man, man, who doesn’t use utensils or a Kleenex to wipe off saliva lingering down his unshaven cheeks. A dream come true for a woman on first date!
As I was eating slowly, contemplating details of this scene and his hunger of life, , wishing it will never end, trying to memorize every detail for eternity, my date’s face turned pale, actually blue, and it became bluer and bluer! He signaled the international language of “I am choking!”
Oh my God, my date was choking and here was the opportunity for me to show MY super power or be faced with a dead date!.
It can’t be, I thought, this is some kind of trick to see if I have a good heart. I wasn’t going to go for it! No way!
Meanwhile, a bunch less septic of good Samaritans who were probably doctors, or t least took a First Aide Course at their kids school came to the rescue. In a matter of seconds, one of them did the maneuver and before I know it, the date spit a half- chewed-pizza bite from his sensuous mouth right on top on my single pizza slice, so be it!! Now, how intimate was this? Close to a French kiss minus the tongue!!! on MY PLATE! How romantic was this ? Who cared? He was breathing !Let’s face it, it beat death!
Abruptly, the dreamy scene STOPPED. His eyes starred into nothingness…I wonder what did he see?? Imagining that it was my face the last thing he would have seen before death??? Hmm couldn’t be, he looked scarred!
“Oh!!! My tooth!” He screamed, at last!!! ” The bastards broke my FRONT tooth when I bit into their damn pizza crust I want the manager! Where is the manager???”
Now everyone looked at us. The person next to us said he changed his mind… he’d rather have something softer.”!
The owner arrived, all sweaty. The louder my date spoke, the softer did the owner. The date took the tooth the proof,” out of the pizza bite, and took it with him as proof of the crime and what an unprofessional this place was!
The owner was now whispering and he barely heard, offered the dissatisfied customer, my toothless date, the cost of fixing the tooth. He wanted MORE. Who was he (the owner, kidding) he ruined the toothless date’s life???
This was a first date with a beautiful woman (me) explained the toothless date, (Imagine if they would have known about my magical powers, the price would have doubled). My head was spinning making calculations, and I am NOT good at math, still the numbers were hard to even grasp!! Suddenly that pizza slice caused my self-esteem to go UP through the roof!!! My Goodness, was I valuable!
My head started spinning. I felt out of place. I didn’t even remember what happened. I just wanted I wanted to be OUT!!!
Next, I saw, were the toothless date smiling a toothless smile and shaking hands with a very happy Pizza Place owner:
“Yes Sir,” said the owner,” you just bring the dentist bill to me and we’ll take care of it!” Yes, Sir, you’re right the crust is….How about if next time you take her (ME!!!) to … and he names some fancy restaurant, and it’s on US!!!”
They shook hands again, as we were leaving. Half the way out, my date turns as if he forgot something, and says to the cashier:
“Do me a favor, take the rest of the pizza and wrap it to go! That was one good pizza I” take it hoe!”
I stepped out ahead of him and as I was getting into my car, the toothless date caught up with me. He reached me from behind and asked:
“No next date….?”
In all truth, it took all my imaginary powers to not knock out the rest of his teeth!
IMPORTANT This is a story whose purpose is entertainment and not medical advice. If you feel that you need medical help please call 911 and/or have someone drive you to the emergency room if it’s around the corner from your home.. DO NOT call your Mom, sister or husband, friend across country to ask them what to do. They will advise you to call 911 immediately.
: Bipolar is a treatable mental condition and millions live well with it. There are medications and therapy which indeed make miracles.
If someone suffers of bipolar chances are the person is also extremely intelligent. They are imaginative and artistic, to name just two of the qualities.
The combination of talk therapy and the correct medication does wonders.
In most cases the symptoms are generally not as well defined and there are many grey areas. It is essential to STAY on medications. If some of you wish me to write a post on BIPOLAR itself, please just drop me line and I will. That is also true for any subjects YOU are interested in. I will share what I know, research what I don’t and together we will be better and smarter!
There is too much sadness in our lives and throughout my writings, no matter how serious they are, I try to keep a sense of humor present, so that we obey by one of our rules: Laughter is the BEST Medicine.
Have a good weekend everyone, let’s try to keep our sense of humor because as wise people say, “laughter IS, the best therapy.”
Please, no matter how funny it seems to others, NEVEVER make fun oft someone else who suffers from any condition, It is NOT fun to them.
If you wish to make fun, make fun of something YOU suffer. You could make fun of yourself but not others.
May God allow us smile for a moment and teach us that nothing is hopeless and the right medications and type of counseling, indeed do magic!
Thank you for continuing to read our versatile blog. It mimic LIFE!!! Just life in real life we will laugh together, cry together and learn a LOT in the process. Please always share and ask. We are on this journey, called life, together.
Rodica Mihalis, M.S. Counselor online https://www.proventherapy.com/Rodica